Today is just one of those not-so-good days. You know, those days when you are not physically sick but you are emotionally unwell. I get so easily affected when I hear bad reports about me, and more so when I get falsely accused. There are also times when I feel bad simply because I desire something, and I don’t get it while others do. I could fill my list with a lot of things which could embitter me but..
While praying, a question popped in my mind, “What are the things you are most thankful of?” And so I answered, “My family, friends, well-being, my relationship with the Lord, etc.” Not sooner did I realize that these are the ones that are really important and the things that will mean the most to me for the rest of my life.
Once again, I feel lovingly corrected by my Lord and Savior Jesus. He reminded me that having earthly possessions and having people fully adore you are not the real measure of happiness. Truth of the matter is, the first breath you take in the morning as you open your eyes is something that we all should be grateful of. That’s enough to cause us to be happy and joyful, but sad to say, that most of us take this precious gift of life for granted. We go through the day ungrateful, feeling entitled to be here. Oftentimes, we lose sight of gratitude because our hearts are after the wrong things in this world. We think we know what will make us happy, but unfortunately, we don’t.
So, after my sulking, the Lord reminded me to be grateful. Just like what Paul reminded us in 1 Thessalonians 5:18, “Give thanks in ALL circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”
Secondly, He reminded me also to just trust Him for He knows the plans He has for me. His plans to give me hope and a future.(Jeremiah 29:11)
After praying and meditating on God’s word, I sense this inner peace and relief. Oh, this journey of mine! It’s a roller coaster ride, and it’s pretty tough. But even if it’s difficult, I welcome it (Though unwillingly sometimes) because the word of God says He disciplines those whom He loves. (Heb 12:6) I am loved by my good Father. Thus, I believe that what He is doing in my life is truly for my benefit.